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I thought this was really unique

i found this off

this picture in itself says alot about how us Black woman put everyone else before ourselves. if we keep allowing this to happen without acheiving our own dreams first, what is the meaning of LIFE?

Did I make a MIstake

Did i make a mistake when i said we should be together? did i make a mistake saying Ill love you forever?
Only thinking about the way you treat me, youre not treating me like your one and only queen

you say words that flatter me at times but your actions are not one OF kind/
sometimes you remind me of the old guys I
WASwith , not putting your girl in first place showing me my home is not a safe place.
I do feel chemistry between our words but my love goes deep down into the soul, plus an chemistry equation can always go wrong.

Did i make a mistake in giving you my love? did i make a mistake giving away my first love?
so many adjustments i gotta go through with you, Sexaully getting used to the things you dont do, Mentally putting my mind in yours trying to open the secrect door, Physically giving you 100 percent or more but should I when you may not make it thru that second door?

Only time can tell but its ticking, dont think cause were together youll get everything you was wishing.

Flying high

Flying high above the clouds, is so peaceful and serene, no worries no stress you cant even see the birds and the bees,
the sun seems to be so close as it shines upon my face, rays of beauty appear as i know God has me in his grace.
looking out the airplane window tryna figure out where should i go, with the unlimited possibilities
and all the beautiful scenaries how can i choose just one place to go
I want to see it all, and see new things expirence new cultures and find Peace in ME

Quiet sounds, soft movements, some a little shaky but by remembering that flying so high the past has no memories.the first step onto the plane is when all my worries went away.

Sitting in this sit 27f my mind as clear as it could ever be, wishing i can step out and be flying above the seas,
water is so serene.
everything looks so much smaller from up here when i feel like a giant down there
the different curves, and colors, residences look like large blocks of dusts..

Im flying highremoving myself from t…

Check Out My new Video

Check out My new video shot by @Shawn Darnell Makeup @lovjenmua and hair @lanathestylist.
This was a awesome video and very sexy. Leave a comment good or bad..and remember watch for me cause im coming..

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Im free From ALL

I stand tall above all, feeling the greatness i hold within, not bound by shackles at the hand nor feet but the evil spirits that try and control me.

Little Voices I hear of negative actions "do this do that" with no sight of future direction but i steer right ingnoring the wrong turn
My own opinions is what leads to my own redemption of sucess or failure, well failure is not a option

I control my Attiude, Actions, Attriubutes the three A's i call em cause without ATTITUDE youll form wrong ACTIONS which ends in no ATTRIBUTES to no purpose which performs pointless ACTIONS controlled by your ATTITUDE

Teaching others to keep an open mind past the WORLDLY things, living is HAPPINESS which is the simpliest thing
Thats why most seem to feel the worst when the worst isnt nearly as bad as it seems, keep believing with a head high, shoulders up and eyes on the obvious movements\

Im free from all bec…

Mc Hammer disses jay Z..In new Song He better Run



Now I don't really do gossip nor care about the industry doing but i just HAD to speak on MC hammer coming out with this video saying Jay z Sold his soul and so fourth, with allegations from MC hammer saying the reason he lost millions was very statues of gargoyles he had bought RIGHT????

well in my opinion the Video was straight lame. You can diss someone about selling there soul to the devil when in your video you have fire which represents the devil, wearing mostly black which represent evil  and wearing a shirt with a man with wings and horns..Must i go on..see most ppl fail to look at videos more clearly but not I ..theres a message in every video and I believe MC Hammer just wanted some attention and created this video without thinking cause clearly he has some satanic and Illuminati things in here as well..
all i have to say is SMH
I decided to write a poem about Love since so many say that word.. enjoy and Know Love is from God...

What is Love to you? Is it a four letter word that says your heart is true? That one you see your life with,can love make or break it? What is your definition of love? does it hold a secrect signifigance?

See I never understood the word love because I use it so much. I love my family, I love God but how do you know when to use Love? We misuse it, we down play it and use it for evil, when Love is supposed to bring Joy over your growing years..

male or female who can love first? Is there a pattern of generations that can seperate love from Lust? if you never been Loved how do you know what love is? Or how do you know youre loving the right way?

Is the one you love guiding you? teachin you how to love?
Love is from the heart its not forced or moved too soon. You determine who you love physically, mentally and emotionally than love will sexually encouter,

What is love? a strong positive e…

Don Diva Magazine

yes your girl is Published again Don Diva Magazine Issue 41, Thanks To Madison Kelly with @msk_enterprise and Shawn Darnell i did it again

Get Money Magazine w/ Diggy Simmons and Myself

Just informing all to go cop an copy of Get Money Magazine with Myself an Diggy Simmons sharing a double cover. I wan to thank Kolie Crutcher for excepting  me as a feature in the Mag 6 page spread and Lanier Presley with Negotiable Inc for getting me the gig. The Magazine is a success and you can defintely read how my buisness mind is. Not just a Pretty go to and order your copy today also follow them at @getmoney_mag. Also download Diggy mixtape at @diggy_simmons

Much Love NOvember

The Life In the A..

Life in the A, oh what can i say. bright flashing lights; parties all night its defintely the FAST LIFE. Surrounded by music and drugs; fighting temptations dudes walking around looking for the next plug. THE LIFE IN THE A
Bentleys and Mercedes cars' shiny jewerly ppl pretending to be something they are not. The  gays the starights, undercover brothers walking astray in silence. Woman chasen woman for a lil bit of fun, dinner with different partners tryna get a dolla LIFE IN THE A
long drives; followed by drive bys, lil kids grow to fast lookn at a 12 year give up her ass A LIFE IN THE A
where everyboy wanna be somebody on a tv screen jus to been seen in a video or movie THE LIFE IN THE A
what can i say i came from the country to  the city so its all new the fast lane sometime isnt coo,
so catch up to the LIFE IN THE A

Time Waits For No one

Slow down I said Im not quite done, I have so much work I need to get done'
Just give me another hr or two, i promise ill be done and be able to talk to you
Wait this cant be true, its dark its light, did i even close my eyes..
Time or where does time go?
its movin so fast I just want it to go slow..i have so much to accomplish and i feel so rushed but time waits for no one why am i complaining about being rushed

hush..just do what you have to do because without a clock or watch you wouldnt know 10 from do what you have to do
cause Time is not going to wait for you..

this was so random
To My Favorite Photographer Shawn Darnell, he has been there for me through more than just my career he has dealt with my personal drama as well. Me and shawn has been on a long journey together starting from Denver to ATL. he has ggot me published in Skin Tones; Straight Stuntn; Gorgeous Magazine, Don Diva etc  and a host of interviews he took part in. he is not only a great photographer but hes a great friend, and how else to tell him except on MY Thank u Shawn for everything youve done for me and my career and personal life. you are do it big BIG DADDY lol

Core Models Worldwide

Now Im touching basis on this Because my core sister Geri C Touched this topic.. As you all know IM a Core Model and has been for over 3yrs and I must say ever since I bcame apart of this family i been blessed to meet tons of people i never thought i would come across. We are a family and if you dont respect that than kiss our pretty little a$$$ we run together and stick up for eachother, and if someone tries to mess with one you mess with all.
The boss Tony Neal has not only excepted me in this family he also has given me so much knowledge pertaining to this game called Industry and that i am thankful for so thank u tony.And for all my Core dj bretherns you all appreciated for what u do and  without djs wouldnt be artist..remember that..we Core models love you to. And my core sisters I love you and got your back through this industry and real life situations outside of the core. we are all Woman with grace and thanks for portraying that..Now LETS TAKe OVER 


and welcome and thanks for coming by. Yea i know my blog is not all shiny filled with a whole bunch of gossip but I swore to all my fans i will be updating my blog a little more so you all can see a bigger picture of me and what I do..
Right now i have some of my basic writing on here and Yes I am a writer, i will add more as the days just be patient dam it lol
but jus a few things that will be on here my writing from my books im writing, poetry; thoughts, news im interested in and maybe some dudes i may blast out or some things kinky and darn right nasty, hell i dont know

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